Break//Down

Welcome back Vibrant Fam! Today is gonna be a raw one for you all -- more personal than overarching so thank you for reading. This week was incredibly rough, I could not tell you why specifically though. I was angry, sad, numb and everything in between. Depression never just goes away but when your lows have been minute it can definitely take you off guard when they hit an extreme low. I came home one day this week after work and was fighting back tears the entire trip home until I could no longer on the walk from the train. I have no idea why I was crying, what spurred that necessity to cry but boy was it cathartic. I sat on my bed just staring at the wall and letting go of any qualms and just basked in the emotion. I cannot say how much this helped because the next couple of days were just as rough but it eventually eased up and as I am writing this I am doing much better. I decided to write about this today because depression rears its ugly head at the most inconvenient moments. The way our mind tries to cope does not always make sense and I feel many of us struggle with trying to make sense of everything but with depression sometimes things just do not make sense. The cathartic nature of just surrendering to emotion ended up being an incredible coping ability within this moment. One thing I constantly remind myself in the midst of depressive bouts is that this does not define me. You are more than your mental health, you are more than the bad days and you can get through this.

Spread Love, Spread Light and Stay Vibrant.